just because my bb trackball is now working!

I grin in excitement as I blog this post... Cus my blackberry trackball final works horray! This means I can actually scroll down! Which is a lot more frustrating than it seems! I haven't bin on this blog 4 ages... Aint that always my same story! But still...
I am here to let u know my new years resolution... This years is... *drumroll* to get loads closer 2 God!!! Yayyy!! Man...I am soo going to try to live by the "seek God first" principle.. As it is going to be.. An interesting final uni year! Hopefully by. nxt year I'll b looking back on this happy because I accomplished my aim!wish me luck! And pray 4 me :)

Goodnyt 4 now mes companions xx

Hair freedom!

So 2day is my afros first day out in a loong time! Yaaay! I am not guna lie it feels so liberating! Duno what it is about it being out this tiem around that I feel like the whole world is watching me! When I first ventured out for some treason I felt extremely selg vonvious! Felt the whole world was looking at me! I was expecting someone 2 come up to be and try and touch it! And trust me dey would be licky if they left with der hand in tact if they tried that! Unfortunatly, it is raaaining! So as I hurriedly type this entry on my bb, I am doggidly tryin 2 avoid rain drops from touchin my newly washd fro! Wouldn't mind so much if da rain water was clean bt it aint! And I aint gettin ne toxic dump on my hair fank u very much!




*this post has been saved in my memos for a while... So its a bit late... Since then a lot has happened but I am working on getting over it...*

Hair BE GONE!!

So after about 5 weeks of my million braids... i finally decided my hair had been tortured enough....

After 7hrs 15 mins and 4 movies later- the dreaded million braids were out... to be honest... the experience of having them in was not as plesant as i thought it would be.... i imagined experiment with various different flowing hair styles, curls, and fancy pile ups... instead i found myself being cautious to pack it into one, because of the dreaded no hair line effect it could cause if i pulled it to tight....
i think it is going to be a whilllee before i get it done again!

funnily... when my hair was in braids... i found my self MISSING my afro hair... i really did... and for some reason i dont even want to do the weave thing... for a long while... i am just... turned off slightly! hmm strange...

I am embracing myself... in the most naturalist form.. bt saying that i need something to jazz it up because as you probably know by now, i have been told that i look like a 16 year old school kid!

*note to self! learn how to use punctuation... and by a dictionary!lol*

anyways... so whilst i sit here waiting for my conditioner to do its stuff.. i am wondering whether i should cut my fro all the way down.... my ends are so week! after my silly experimental stage of texturiser... *never again i promise you dear hair*.... but i duno... will i have the confidence to rock the short fro? when i mean short... i really mean short... well after the conditioner comes of i will see how i feel then... but for now my sisscor fingers are tingling!!

I will let you know of the outcome... soon as i wash this DC of my head....

to be continued...

Million braids... a million problems?

okk ok i got it done! contrary to dee cussing me about getting them done and the numerous warnings about the dangers... I GOT MILLION BRAIDS DONE!!! and i looveee dem...

I am very worried about the after effects of them because of the night mare stories i have heard about not having a hair line etc etc... just praying that is not my portion boy! ANYWAYS who is going to help me take them out :D

PLEASE IGNORE DA UBER UNFLATTERING PICTURER... i was just trying to get a close up of the braids... not apply for ANTM! Lool *blushes*

I have decided to try the grow hair long challenge and that simply means looking after my hair alot more and watching what i eat... should be fun! more reason for me to go shopping for hair products is what i say! :D

Christian? mee?!

hellooooo... HIIIIII

so i have been back for a few days now, and tbh i havent done nothing much with my life... actually scratch that!! on 14 sep 2010 i got SAAAVEEEDDD AAGAAAIN!! dat was an amazing night... because the days before that i was sinking into pits of sadness and other stuff.... but thank the lord i have been freeed and lifted up!! whoopee!!

me being me.. i can not be a stereotypical christian....i really dont think i know how to? so i am really just going to try and play it by "ear"... as in by listening to my conscious... because i look at some of these christians out there and i think WOOWW... ooh woow... may God help me to get there one day... but for now i think i will like to remain in Love with God.. fun... free and liberal enjoying being friends with Him first... hesh...

Being Christian... well this blog is quite a ramble i must say... not my usual structured prose.. and spelling is probably terrible but i am just typing as i am feeling...

as i was saying.. being christian.. not gunna lie this time around it feels a lil weird... like new weird... i slid back into sin sooo unconsciously and it was mainly through laziness to get up and pray and read my bible... AND also through the fear of becoming a hard backed "bible basher" who no longer has empathy for people that arent at their level of christianity yet... people like that scare me tbh... BUT i am realising that just because i am saved i dont have to be like that... i can just love and serve the lord in my own individual way...

ALSO i have learned that in order to stay rooted i need to surround myself with positive things.... as the way my mind thinks.. it likes to think of every negative thing in the book magnify it and x it by 10-- the so called x10 thinking... then applies it to me... basic example you see something nasty on the floor, a normal person will be like... eww thats nasty...but walk by and get over it.. me i will be like euurgh thats nasty... then whilst walking by think... eww imagine if i ate the nasty thing... or tripped up and fell face down in it.. imagine if the nasty thing got up and turned into a monster and knew my name and chased me down peckham high street... ok.. not as dramtic as that last scenario but you get my drift...
remedy this- by surrounding myself with positive things i can make it a thing where i "x10" about positive things... like reading my bible, listning to gospel, watching christian vids on youtube... not gunna lie before i didnt like doing these sorts of things because i felt like it would turn me into those christians that are constantly bombarding you with christianity, relgion God... but you know what.. what is wrong with that anyways? hmm...

my motive... to be a grounded christian... with wings to fly when it is time... ;)

sorry about the unstructurdness. was just musing..

see you in the skyyyy--- oohh random point.. i have somehow managed to pick up a fear of flying... can anyone help with this? cus i duno if i can fly again for the next i dont know 100 years... ACTUALLY i rebuke that!! if you claim it.. then you are it.. so i dont claim it.. i reject it.. i will fly again in jesus name amen!

i digress.. as we were before..

goodbye

xx

Back in London town.... feeling a lil down...

i am BAAACCCKKK in the town where it is ok for boys to wear skinny jeans...

Ghana was soooooooooooo !! wow! i had the best time!! thank you to all of you who made it such a great experience....

soo, im back... so... em... *cough*... i am sooo motive less.. and feeling more than half empty... i think i am missing my 'jam'... you know that feeling when you have finished your exams... and you have nothing more to revise for... thats what i am suffering for... i mean i guess i could do some of my portfolio work... but gosh who does that?! ah!

back to ghana though...had a wicked time... wish i could have gone to cape coast but unfortunatly kofis dad wasnt down with the idea when we had a few days to leave... so sigh maybe next time eh... theres a reason for everything after all!!

strange to come back to lonon though... when you can walk about without being sold pure water or fan yogo on the road side... i actually have to GO INTO a SHOP to buy such snacks! and no kelewele! darn it!

oooooooooooooo MYYY BABBIESSSS at the orphanage!awwwwwww!! was sad saying goodbye to them! nearly cried!! my sweety effie when she saw me raaan to hug me at the door with a huge smile... when i was going she had this puzzled sad smile on her face.. and she was like... you are going? :( nearly broke my heart...

sigh.

OH and the plane ride home! gosh flying should be illegal! the way i was having panic attacks on the plane journey home!! ahah! never take Afriqiyah or do transit flighs ever in your life! it is such an unecessary stressful experience! :(

well i really should be resting as somehow i manged to catch a cold in ghana?!

take care my companions...

lots of lovess and international kisses...

Osu Scandal... and last day muses....

OMG!!! CAN YOU IMAAAGINE!! It came to light that kids have been abused in the childrens home i have been working at!! well whilst i was working there i saw no evidence of such abuse! i only saw evidence of over worked and over stretched staff trying to control some cute but stubborn kids!! however, i worked mainly in the on site school and i did not witness anything of a negative or abusive nature, so maybe i can only talk for one area. Sigh God help us sha, cus it is crazy to think that someone wants to subject these kids to more suffering than they have been through already! i say people should just help out to increase the Homes resources... because it is seriously lacking.

Anyways..... that whole thing put a damper on my goodbye at the home, but still i was able to take some pictures thankfully.

i will be leaving in 4 days and these next couple of days i plan to millllllk every hour dry of fun!! lol it will be cape coast, the gardens all these touristy attractions as i can possibly stand! well i hope so anyways...

whilst out here i have been trying to complete a project, and i hope it comes to fulfilment.... i will let you know how it goes...

anyways to all my london heads i will see you real soon... to my ghana peoples i am guna miss you all! :( spesh you NKDK... :(


take care yall..


btw i am SOOO SHOOOOK of this flight home! kaiiiii! i may need to take a sleeping tablet to conk myself out so i dont stress!

Mid - Time Blues... Holiday Hues...

ok, now it really isnt my fault! i havent had internet for soo long! now that my blackberry services have finished it is like i am totally disconnected from the world.... oh btw for all my blackberry lovers... me included... blackbery is nothing without its services! kmt... such a wack feature-less phone! its only when you are not being serenaded by the pings of a new bbm message that you realise it... i still love you though boo **kisses blackberry"

Anyhooo... what have i been up to so far?

well duno if you know i did my hair again... yep three times in the space of three weeks it was... well i may have mentioned that already but hey...


i also went to Akonsobo dam.. which was GORJUSLY BEAUTIFUL! went on a cruise to a little island were all the island kids tried to hold my hand.... and i shouted HESH HESH! everytime... i dont fall for all that cute hand holding business.... hmm... they got all persistent and not so cute when they were asking for money... i think that "can i have money to buy book to read" was probably all the english a few of them knew because when i said i dont got none... they looked a little confused....

i also visited Lambade beach... it was nice... was shocked to see such a sandy beach in ghana... i dunno was kind of expecting the same orange stuff you see on road on the beaches... but was pleasently suprised to see it was actually quite nice...

i have loaads of pics so will be posting.... sometime

i plan to do a whooole lot more of the touristy stuff in my last few weeks.... this week i plan to go to Ebru gardens... and the next week i will be going to cape coast to see the castle and all that fun stuf...

The childrens hommmeee!! lol it is such a fun place.. well not when i am tired.. kai! but i love them kids like wooah! they have their little gangs and gangsters and boss men... and even they are soo cute... i actually am enjoying working there... and getting to know the children better... others find it a lot more difficult to work their due to the cultural differences... but as you all prob know i am AFF so i know how certain things go down... for example... i am a firm believe in the phrase spare the rod spoil the child... AFRICAN/BLACK kids are STUBBORN KAAIII!! so sometimes when the aunties give dem a little knock i find myself giving a slight nod of yesss "you-were-being-soo-cheeky-so-deserved-that"... ah! i mean gosh! if it was all about love and pampering then these kids will be seriously spoilt... i think it should not be forgotten that although the children have no parents, which in itself is a sad situation, it should always be rememebred that the orphanage is their home... so that means they need to be disciplined to grow up to be sensible adults.. if that makes sense? I believe in showing them love as well as a firm hand.. cus if i just smile and giggle whenever they knock the other child over the head with their cup of Hausa Coco they will become increasingly spoilt!

However... there are some things that happen there that is a little sad... like the kids are made to sit on a potty for a loooonnnngg time some of them are not even old enough to hold up their head... but tbh i cant even blame them... nah condition as my people will say... they cant afford to keep the kids in nappys constantly... sad but true... SO if anyone would like to make a donation let me know... and ill let them know :D


I am MISSING all my people immensly! sigh my fam my girls and all my peoples! but dont worry will soon be coming home sadly....cant believe it has gone soo quickly!!

Anyhoo... will love you all and leave u... taking my host mothers son out for his birthday.. he is soo cheeky! lol today he said to his mum because she was telling him to read his book... ah you go back to your job! loool good times....


love you all long time! good night! xxx

kelwele cravings... toothache painings...

Woow! Haven't been on here for a hot minute! That is probably because its a little long to get net at the moment... Blackberry needs to consider getting a google blogspot app #ideaclaimed# anyhoo... Run down of the past few days... Getting more used to being in osu... Host family is lovely... Only that I kind of feel like I am still at home as I always have to say when I am going out and if I am out for to long its a little bit of an issue which is a bit annoying... But still.

*digression* had banku and tilapia yday!! I am soo going to try it again when my teeth get better! Ooo

My teeeeethh! Kai! Soo basically I had this awful ass tooth ache! Kai! It was just terrible! So I had to suck it up and find a ghanian dentist! My host family as kind as they are, sent da son to help me find one. Was there no and was told I either start root canal treatment or just take the tooth out. Ok. Where this tooth is one has already been taken out so if I take another one out you can imagine the gumminess of it all! So I had to fight through my tears and just begin with the root canal treatment! Hmm what can I say... But the dentist and nurse was nice... Their practice wasn't as 100% as clean as a uk dentist but meh I'm not complaining. My teeth still hurts like a mofo though.. And I am just praying it is after sugery pain cus I want to be able to eat my banku and tilapia in peace!!

Mmm I have a huuuge craving for kelewele! Ah! You don't evn know!! Mmm!!

The orphanage has been good so far... Very tiring but the kids are addoorrable! There are some cheeky ones 2! Kai! Lool and sometimes to come out of the play room they stage revolutions lool and one even had a snack heist! Lool funny stuff!! Funnier even still when they see like foreigners they all shout obroniiiii obRrroniiiii!!

For now its watching the liverpool v arsenal match in the airport then off to a bbq! Its been a good life! Thank God!

Will update soon! Lots of love! Xxx

first day at the orphanage....

Today was my first day at Osu Childrens home. It was more of an administrative day to be shown around and to decide where i would like to be placed. oooo!! before i even delve into what happened during the day let me tell you of the cheekiness of one lady that worked in the reception at the orphanage. Basically i came to the orphanage not really sure of what i was doing as my contact was unable to come with me. SO of i go with my most respectful english accent to inform the lady at reception that i was told to come at 10 am but i was a bit early. She goes to me... so em WHO SAID YOU ARE VOLUNTEERING and me being me and not my contact i did not know the name of the lady who i talked to.. so i was like i am not sure i was just told to come back on monday and she was like well IF YOU ARE NOT SURE THEN I AM ALSO NOT SURE... *rude tone and blunt response*. i mean i was shocked SHOCKED I tell you! ahah! a whole load of nonsense! i was sooo vex... but nehu back to the better stuff...

I had to choose the house i would start my volunteer work in. At first we went to the different houses just to look around and be introduced to the workers... lol before this point.. i digress a little... lol before we went of to be introduced the manager of the orphanage made a funny... as all the other volunteers are white she introduced them in their groups like they are from denmark those are from germany then she goes about me... you can tell she is seperate from these people because she is black!! loool! i chuckled.. sighh we all chuckled... i bbm'd my people and they 'lol'd' too...

where was i? oh yes.. so we went to the different depts. i got told in one house that i reminded her of her inlaw which was different.. i am sure they said she was pretty so all i could do was giggle.... i decided on working in the nursery first then moving on to the other departments as the weeks go by. it gets difficult when you think about the fact that the children there have been left... the cutest kids waving at me... oh lord... :( all they need is love shown!

tomorrow is my first day will be starting at 7 AM! yes i was as shocked as you are! lool... hopefully it goes well and i do what i need to do to help... earlyy night for me 2nyt..

Stay blessed my bloggfriends..



oo and TIP OF THE DAY- NEVER WALK AROUND LIKE THE MARKET SIDES OF GHANA WITH A 50GHC NOTE...IT IS THE MOST FRUSTRATING THING TO GET CHANGE!!
xx

new house blues.... getting used to something new...

I'm at my home stay now, everyone is reaaaaly nice here so I think I will be ok! Took a little bit of getting used to and I am still trying to adjust to it but I think I should be ok. I didn't sleep a wink though yesterday night as my over active memory wouldn't let me sleep as my door was unlocked! I was thinking all sorts!! First sounded like the aeroplane was flying to low, then thought I could hear someone coming in! Stressheaad! Lol

Anyhoo, I will be going to the orphanage today just to see where it is. Will let you know how that goes! For now

Good morning! Xx you are invited...

on my way to Osu....

So I am finally on my way to the host family. General recap on the past couple of days...
Chilling, jamming... Writing songs... Going to a jazz/soul/indie open mic night which was very eventful.. (Lool good times good memories.. Let's just say I will be taking out my hair sometime soon...).

So to the present, I am in a taxi on my way to the home stay. The woman that came to collect me seems really nice anyways, so hopefully the woman looking after me is even nicer! I need 2 get used to the heat though! I realise that when I was with kofi and his fam as I literally went from the car to the next location. So I am HOT now! Ah! Anyways I will update the blog when I get there... But trusay if its an experience right out from a nigerian movie I will b finding one of my peoples places 2 crash!

Osu - Oxford street shenanigans....

Hi,

Went to Osu - Oxford street and in typical african style i now saw some crazy nollywood movie beef! kai! a taxi drove past a little girl was struggling to get out;... she now got out and was fighting with her family members and screaming LEAVE ME LEAAAAVEEE ME!!! i was stunned.... in untypical London fashion.... the people actually STOPPED TO HELP!! in London everyone would have walked off and minded their own business, sparing the occasional glance back to gather enough detail to tell their friends later... taught me something about the Ghanians a friend of mine told me a while back... during the day it is like everyone is your brother/sister they will try to help!
(saying that some people were actually trying to encourage the girls family to take her back! which was a lil worrying)

anywhoo... days are going by remarkably quick.... will soon be starting my work at the orphanage which should be really good.

Tonight will be going out... mmm i will tell you how it goes ooooo OOoooOOO

tc and talk 2 u soon oo

Day 2 and a 5GHC tip Hair do....

AKWAABA! i am starting to get used to the bumpy roads of ghana, and seeing the markets etc. the initial culture shock came in bouts of surreality. I would see a guy carrying tire parts on his head and think i am in Ghana. wow.

Yesterday fulled with 1 hour sleep i went to get some clothes to wear just for a day or two. LET ME TELL YOU GHANA is EXPENSIVE! wow! i never would have thought it... a pair of linen trousers and a top is what i settled with clothes wise and the trousers alone cost me 50 GHC! that is £25 for a pair of linen trousers that i actually have bought for £5 (they are in my suitcase in Libia probably missing me....)

Today i spent the day in the hairdresser wasnt as long as i expected it would be... but then maybe that is because of the chunky braids she put at the back... o well all the better for taking out easily afterwards... i decided to tip her 5 GHC cus she even washed my hair! and that was to be included in the 20 GHC (£10) That she was charging to braid my hair. man that is as cheap as chips! well fish and chips and mushy peas maybe you know what i mean.

I will start work at the orphanage from next week or the week after, but i am very grateful for these couple of days where i can get to know Ghana first before jumping into the working side of my trip.

For now i am tirred and may just nap... ooo need to remember to take more pictures! but without my pouch i feel scared to take it out!

ON some levels i really have learnt from not having my stuff here how some people feel like with nothing at all... i will really appreciate the things that i have (once i get it back!) a whooole lot more.

Peace, Lover, and XPRESSIONS

SN

xx

Day 1 Ghana

i arrived in Ghana this morning... and all i can say is wow... it was em.. a lot.

i will never take Air Afriqiuyah again! being cheap is never good for the soul! anyways....

first of all their flight was delayed by 2 hours. secondly when on the flight the pilot made some death defying drop that had me reaching for the persons hand next to me in fear...

FINALLY when i arrived at the airport it came to light that my luggage and many of the others who connected from London their luggage did not turn up in ACCRA! I mean what sort of nonsense....

i have not slept a wink but i am going to stay positive... even though i am not going to get my stuff back till thursday.... :(

thank God at least that i packed my dads little travel pouch thing...


i pray that this experience starts of with these lows... then turns really really positive! i also pray that i get my stuff back with no wahala! ah!

Funny though.... i am actually just thankful to be alive... so thank you God for journey mercies...

for now... need to wait till the sun rises a little so i can go to my hotel... was to dark and late for the person i am crashing with to take me... and their brother has now invoked the fear of arm robbers etc into my head lol

Hopefully there will be better news later today... abi joy cometh in the morning...

these three days will be helpful in a way- in terms of considering and experiencing what it is like not to have anything and having to make do on what you do have... lord help me!

regardless AKWAABA Welcome to Ghana! hmmm

tc xx

1 day till Ghana....tomorrow is D day

Ok so tomorrow i am flying out to Ghana whoohooo?! tbh i have noticed my blogs got shorter and shorter as the days got closer! i am excited but it is the flying hype that has got me shaking in my office sandals! I pray and hope the flight is smooth and there is no problem!

when i arrive it is going to be late so will prob just go straight to sleep! but we shall see... i am a bit confused about my landing times etc because of the time difference but i guess i will just get there when i get there!

for now ITS GHANA TIME BABY!!

love you all long time... i hope to blog as soon as i land tomorrow...

By the grace of God it will all be good news! :D

take care and see you all soon! xx

1 1/2 days till ghana...

man it is getting scarier and more real each day!!
My family have now gone to Wales so i am all byyy myself! It is such an empty house!

Nothing more to add today...

sigh

excited maybe... really...

nyt xx

3 days till Ghana...

3 days to go... what can i say more than my hands are sweaty mums spaggetti! ah!

PRAY FOR ME OOO! lol

7/6 days till Ghana!!

ooo i have 7/6 days till i jet off on that spaaceeshippp to sunny Ghana... it has come so quick it is quite scary! I had a little send of shindig on saturday which was fun! jst peoples chilling with peoples always makes me happy!

This week is not going to be no holiday for me either! i am going to be busy going here there and ever where in the lead up towards my trip. weds/thurs i will be in nottz for my girlies graduation!!! (sooo prroouddd of u dee and KG) den back in london....

ooohh random! did i say i made my own wax 2day and used it on myself!- no one wanted to volunteer to be my guinea pig for some strange reason! ;O( - and you know it worked quite well- so i am offering waxing services for anyone who requires them... but please note i am not responsible for any bleeding, burns or bumps.. it is all part of the fun after all :)

Anways where was i? oooh yes... so i am going up and down and all over the place when really i should be doing my portfolio! lord help me!

Just got in contact with someone that is in Ghana at the moment and i may hook up with her when i get there, also my friend has just landed in Ghana today so at least i will have peoples i know there when i get there!

For now it is go to sleep time! so goodnight

xx

some people through negative actions... motivate you to achieve more than you ever considered before... (10/11 days till Ghana)

ok, today.. i learnt a big lesson.... well not a BIG lesson but nevertheless a lesson... it was simply that... do not rely on anyone to a) always motivate you b) always believe in your dream c) always support you d) put their dreams and their needs before theirs... the only person i can promise you will always be there for you is God to be honest.

Take my singing for eg. i know i am not the best at it but because of what happened today i am even more motivated to work hard at it because i do want to use it as my form of ministry but also on a more humanly note i want to prove (in some senses) to those that second guess me that i am actually good at what i do! (i am not there yet ooo even writing that i cringed at the cockiness of it!)I know i am faaarr from perfect so boi... It is all good though... no love lost. Just want yall to know i am going to do my thang... gunna work hard on it... and i am going to make it... watch this space.... (*inspirational music reaches cresendo and up comes union jack and fire works*)

Anywhoo Ghana is coming thick and fast! i can not believe it is soo soon! Once again it is a nervous unsure day but God is faithful ooo i will be fine...

Goodnight (well thats mre civilised than usual... lol!)