just because my bb trackball is now working!

I grin in excitement as I blog this post... Cus my blackberry trackball final works horray! This means I can actually scroll down! Which is a lot more frustrating than it seems! I haven't bin on this blog 4 ages... Aint that always my same story! But still...
I am here to let u know my new years resolution... This years is... *drumroll* to get loads closer 2 God!!! Yayyy!! Man...I am soo going to try to live by the "seek God first" principle.. As it is going to be.. An interesting final uni year! Hopefully by. nxt year I'll b looking back on this happy because I accomplished my aim!wish me luck! And pray 4 me :)

Goodnyt 4 now mes companions xx

Hair freedom!

So 2day is my afros first day out in a loong time! Yaaay! I am not guna lie it feels so liberating! Duno what it is about it being out this tiem around that I feel like the whole world is watching me! When I first ventured out for some treason I felt extremely selg vonvious! Felt the whole world was looking at me! I was expecting someone 2 come up to be and try and touch it! And trust me dey would be licky if they left with der hand in tact if they tried that! Unfortunatly, it is raaaining! So as I hurriedly type this entry on my bb, I am doggidly tryin 2 avoid rain drops from touchin my newly washd fro! Wouldn't mind so much if da rain water was clean bt it aint! And I aint gettin ne toxic dump on my hair fank u very much!




*this post has been saved in my memos for a while... So its a bit late... Since then a lot has happened but I am working on getting over it...*

Hair BE GONE!!

So after about 5 weeks of my million braids... i finally decided my hair had been tortured enough....

After 7hrs 15 mins and 4 movies later- the dreaded million braids were out... to be honest... the experience of having them in was not as plesant as i thought it would be.... i imagined experiment with various different flowing hair styles, curls, and fancy pile ups... instead i found myself being cautious to pack it into one, because of the dreaded no hair line effect it could cause if i pulled it to tight....
i think it is going to be a whilllee before i get it done again!

funnily... when my hair was in braids... i found my self MISSING my afro hair... i really did... and for some reason i dont even want to do the weave thing... for a long while... i am just... turned off slightly! hmm strange...

I am embracing myself... in the most naturalist form.. bt saying that i need something to jazz it up because as you probably know by now, i have been told that i look like a 16 year old school kid!

*note to self! learn how to use punctuation... and by a dictionary!lol*

anyways... so whilst i sit here waiting for my conditioner to do its stuff.. i am wondering whether i should cut my fro all the way down.... my ends are so week! after my silly experimental stage of texturiser... *never again i promise you dear hair*.... but i duno... will i have the confidence to rock the short fro? when i mean short... i really mean short... well after the conditioner comes of i will see how i feel then... but for now my sisscor fingers are tingling!!

I will let you know of the outcome... soon as i wash this DC of my head....

to be continued...

Million braids... a million problems?

okk ok i got it done! contrary to dee cussing me about getting them done and the numerous warnings about the dangers... I GOT MILLION BRAIDS DONE!!! and i looveee dem...

I am very worried about the after effects of them because of the night mare stories i have heard about not having a hair line etc etc... just praying that is not my portion boy! ANYWAYS who is going to help me take them out :D

PLEASE IGNORE DA UBER UNFLATTERING PICTURER... i was just trying to get a close up of the braids... not apply for ANTM! Lool *blushes*

I have decided to try the grow hair long challenge and that simply means looking after my hair alot more and watching what i eat... should be fun! more reason for me to go shopping for hair products is what i say! :D

Christian? mee?!

hellooooo... HIIIIII

so i have been back for a few days now, and tbh i havent done nothing much with my life... actually scratch that!! on 14 sep 2010 i got SAAAVEEEDDD AAGAAAIN!! dat was an amazing night... because the days before that i was sinking into pits of sadness and other stuff.... but thank the lord i have been freeed and lifted up!! whoopee!!

me being me.. i can not be a stereotypical christian....i really dont think i know how to? so i am really just going to try and play it by "ear"... as in by listening to my conscious... because i look at some of these christians out there and i think WOOWW... ooh woow... may God help me to get there one day... but for now i think i will like to remain in Love with God.. fun... free and liberal enjoying being friends with Him first... hesh...

Being Christian... well this blog is quite a ramble i must say... not my usual structured prose.. and spelling is probably terrible but i am just typing as i am feeling...

as i was saying.. being christian.. not gunna lie this time around it feels a lil weird... like new weird... i slid back into sin sooo unconsciously and it was mainly through laziness to get up and pray and read my bible... AND also through the fear of becoming a hard backed "bible basher" who no longer has empathy for people that arent at their level of christianity yet... people like that scare me tbh... BUT i am realising that just because i am saved i dont have to be like that... i can just love and serve the lord in my own individual way...

ALSO i have learned that in order to stay rooted i need to surround myself with positive things.... as the way my mind thinks.. it likes to think of every negative thing in the book magnify it and x it by 10-- the so called x10 thinking... then applies it to me... basic example you see something nasty on the floor, a normal person will be like... eww thats nasty...but walk by and get over it.. me i will be like euurgh thats nasty... then whilst walking by think... eww imagine if i ate the nasty thing... or tripped up and fell face down in it.. imagine if the nasty thing got up and turned into a monster and knew my name and chased me down peckham high street... ok.. not as dramtic as that last scenario but you get my drift...
remedy this- by surrounding myself with positive things i can make it a thing where i "x10" about positive things... like reading my bible, listning to gospel, watching christian vids on youtube... not gunna lie before i didnt like doing these sorts of things because i felt like it would turn me into those christians that are constantly bombarding you with christianity, relgion God... but you know what.. what is wrong with that anyways? hmm...

my motive... to be a grounded christian... with wings to fly when it is time... ;)

sorry about the unstructurdness. was just musing..

see you in the skyyyy--- oohh random point.. i have somehow managed to pick up a fear of flying... can anyone help with this? cus i duno if i can fly again for the next i dont know 100 years... ACTUALLY i rebuke that!! if you claim it.. then you are it.. so i dont claim it.. i reject it.. i will fly again in jesus name amen!

i digress.. as we were before..

goodbye

xx

Back in London town.... feeling a lil down...

i am BAAACCCKKK in the town where it is ok for boys to wear skinny jeans...

Ghana was soooooooooooo !! wow! i had the best time!! thank you to all of you who made it such a great experience....

soo, im back... so... em... *cough*... i am sooo motive less.. and feeling more than half empty... i think i am missing my 'jam'... you know that feeling when you have finished your exams... and you have nothing more to revise for... thats what i am suffering for... i mean i guess i could do some of my portfolio work... but gosh who does that?! ah!

back to ghana though...had a wicked time... wish i could have gone to cape coast but unfortunatly kofis dad wasnt down with the idea when we had a few days to leave... so sigh maybe next time eh... theres a reason for everything after all!!

strange to come back to lonon though... when you can walk about without being sold pure water or fan yogo on the road side... i actually have to GO INTO a SHOP to buy such snacks! and no kelewele! darn it!

oooooooooooooo MYYY BABBIESSSS at the orphanage!awwwwwww!! was sad saying goodbye to them! nearly cried!! my sweety effie when she saw me raaan to hug me at the door with a huge smile... when i was going she had this puzzled sad smile on her face.. and she was like... you are going? :( nearly broke my heart...

sigh.

OH and the plane ride home! gosh flying should be illegal! the way i was having panic attacks on the plane journey home!! ahah! never take Afriqiyah or do transit flighs ever in your life! it is such an unecessary stressful experience! :(

well i really should be resting as somehow i manged to catch a cold in ghana?!

take care my companions...

lots of lovess and international kisses...

Osu Scandal... and last day muses....

OMG!!! CAN YOU IMAAAGINE!! It came to light that kids have been abused in the childrens home i have been working at!! well whilst i was working there i saw no evidence of such abuse! i only saw evidence of over worked and over stretched staff trying to control some cute but stubborn kids!! however, i worked mainly in the on site school and i did not witness anything of a negative or abusive nature, so maybe i can only talk for one area. Sigh God help us sha, cus it is crazy to think that someone wants to subject these kids to more suffering than they have been through already! i say people should just help out to increase the Homes resources... because it is seriously lacking.

Anyways..... that whole thing put a damper on my goodbye at the home, but still i was able to take some pictures thankfully.

i will be leaving in 4 days and these next couple of days i plan to millllllk every hour dry of fun!! lol it will be cape coast, the gardens all these touristy attractions as i can possibly stand! well i hope so anyways...

whilst out here i have been trying to complete a project, and i hope it comes to fulfilment.... i will let you know how it goes...

anyways to all my london heads i will see you real soon... to my ghana peoples i am guna miss you all! :( spesh you NKDK... :(


take care yall..


btw i am SOOO SHOOOOK of this flight home! kaiiiii! i may need to take a sleeping tablet to conk myself out so i dont stress!